Now in Chicago for training.

What is it with Polish girls? <3

2 days left. Sad. In my room. iPad2. Introversion at work.

Time for another change. Happy with changes in the last year. Escaped to real life. Barely, barely!

Secrets.

And the battle goes on. We are one!

We are already plenty smart and strong, yet socially sometimes we are still retarded.

As for David Pearce.. very interesting! But before I delve deeper into this guy and his crazy theories, I would like to ask you whether he thinks that suffering has no value? This is the first question that should pop into anyone’s mind, but it’s not even in the faq!

In the current climate, it is advisable that introverts go multidisciplinary. Meaning they should try and be as polyvalent as possible, studying different things at a time. Why?

Basically, introverts like to spend their time alone thinking (and are good at it, which can be either genetic or due to training effects). If introverts would go multidisciplinary, for example going for a degree in Economics and Computer Science, they would have a keen sense of understanding both fields at the end of the road (dark blue triangles). They would be able to analyze and abstract relevant elements from both fields, combine them and develop a new promising idea in a fast, efficient way.

It would be economically inefficient for 2 extraverts, both being PhD’s in their respective fields (light blue triangles), to try and achieve the same result as the introvert who did it all in his own head. Ignoring the fact that 2 persons are generally more costly than just 1, the 2 extraverts are only able to know what the other one is thinking by talking to each other. Being extraverts, they are naturally efficient at communicating, but they are no match for the introvert who only needed to find the answer within himself. Since multidisciplinary studies are still rarely taken, there are still lots of valuable nuggets to be found crossreferencing the dark blue triangles. It is thus advisable that introverts go multidisciplinary. Only when the dark blue triangles are mined out do the extraverts regain the advantage, as they are capable of internalizing the light blue areas in their crossreferencing too, something the multidisciplinary introvert is not able to do. Two monodisciplinary introverts are also worse off than 2 extraverts because the latter are statistically (actually?)  more efficient at communicating.

Theoretically speaking, in the long long term, introverts should be bred out, having become inferior to extraverts.

But then yesterday night I suddenly realized I was overlooking something. Until then I had been ignoring a little fact, thinking that something so trivial would only minorly be able to affect my plans. But when I finally decided to stop ignoring it, it started to dawn on me that this matter would be able to completely destroy the constructions I had in mind until that point. For about one hour I was convinced that that was it, that nothing could be done further to reanimate the project, over and out. From a few days of heavenly bliss I had suddenly landed in hell’s misery.. knocked down.

I owed it to the project to spend the last of my energy to thinking about it some more though. And luckily I did, because there is still a way, I think. It just needs to be looked at from a different angle this time around. The result is something quite a bit more challenging, but still doable I hope. And funnily enough the construction has become a bit more elegant and flexible thanks to it. We’re still good to go, although I really hope I won’t have to go through something like that again. But the way I see it, all contingencies have now been taken into account, and all that is left is tackling them one by one.

Looking back I guess it was a funny experience as well. Because during the time when my body was still all high on the original idea, I already predicted that it wouldn’t be able to sustain the ecstasy much longer.  I predicted I would crash, not having slept well in days and acting all hyperactive the whole time! And I was right..

So yesterday definitely was a day full of drama. But in the end it’s probably a good thing that I went through this. I needed to come back to reality with a clear head. We’re only in the beginning of a long long way.

Is this really happening?? Am I out of my mind? Am I loooooosing my senses????

Such glorious ideas sometimes seem to carry with them even the answer to life itself, until this epiphony inevitably goes on to trigger the awakening of the other, still dormant parts of one’s wit, and the once sweet delusion starts making place for the familiarity of crude reality.

This time however -fully awake-, the reality appears neither familiar nor crude.

Was the sky not the limit?

Then in the coming days either added excitement… or bitter disappointment, hehe.